Lately.

I've been pretty sad.  I thought I had moved past it, but recently it's crept back in there and I'm not sure how to fix it.  I think it's a bunch of things all rolled together, but I'm having a hard time seeing past it to something good.  It's turning 30, it's personal loss, it's "hey, I'm not 110 lbs. anymore", it's having skin like I'm 15 again.  It's just a lot.  I wouldn't say my life has ever been easy, but I guess I kinda thought it was doable, and now I'm wondering, "Why me?" a lot of the time.  I find myself crying a lot lately.  I know it's my hormones probably mostly, but that knowledge doesn't really help me feel better about it.  I'm really hoping the next few months are good, heck maybe even the next year!