Monday, May 14, 2012
Life On Hold
I feel like my life is on hold right now. My whole life basically revolves around trying to have a baby right now, between the shots and the blood work and the ultrasounds every other day and then the waiting to see if it worked and then when it doesn't work waiting to try it all again. I was thinking tonight about going on a vacation with my husband. It's been a couple of years since we had a real vacation together (frankly, Knoebels doesn't count and actually was only something I started because I thought we'd have a baby by now). I want to go to Mexico or Greece, anywhere that requires a bathing suit and a passport. But, I can't plan vacation when I have to be at the doctor so often and so I wait until I am pregnant, but at this rate, who knows when or even if that is going to happen?! I could take a break from trying to get pregnant for a little while, but I feel like that would be bad idea since I have the insurance right now and there's no guarantee I'll have my current job forever. I would not be a happy camper if I didn't take advantage of my current insurance and then lost the opportunity! So instead, I'll keep going. I'll put the rest of my life on hold, (I can't even go to the gym!), and move on to the next step of IVF. I'm not happy about it, but I am grateful that at least I have insurance that covers it. And maybe I can go on vacation next summer!